Tuesday, November 20, 2012

2 Days in a Row

Go me! I'm feeling really motivated, and I am convinced I can do at least 3 days a week to start. I am going to start doing a dance it out class on Saturdays. I love dancing, so I can't wait!!

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Being Sick

I join the gym....and get sick. I was all ready to go and then boom, a roadblock. Oh well, not going to let this halt my motivation. I need to get my sexy back and get rid of my double chins and tire around my belly. Recommend your fave workout songs!! I need new tunes on my nano.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Brownies

I had a terrible day at work. I did not get a job that I wanted and feel I deserved. I did what I always tend to do...eat my emotions. I had brownies. Oh will this cycle ever end?

Thursday, November 1, 2012

I Joined the Gym

I know it has been a while, but just thought I would do a quick update. I have joined the YMCA. My membership starts today. It is a family membership. My husband and I decided we needed to make working out a priority. It will come directly out of my paycheck, like insurance, or dental. It really should be considered necessary like that, I think. Wish us luck!

Thursday, August 2, 2012

I'm Still Here

Hey everyone, just thought I would check in. I am still very much interested in losing weight and bettering myself, but I have been so busy. Between work, birthday parties, a vacation, planning a 1st birthday party, and the usual summer gatherings, I have just been way too busy to blog. I think (and hope) once the fall gets here that life will settle down a bit.

I'm still in the "eat to live" mindset. I think it is my best option. I love it. I have to say I have not lost any weight. I haven't really gotten too serious yet about the weight loss like I would have liked, but I know it is going to happen. I am talking about it more and more and becoming more aware of everything I eat. This is probably the slowest going plan I've had so far, but I think that might be a good sign. I have always wanted the fast results. I still do, but what I'm trying to do is not a diet or a quick fix. I am going for a complete makeover. A lifestyle change.

So just for fun, I thought I'd share a couple of pictures. When we go on vacation we always go to this same restaurant called Crabby Bills. I thought I'd share 2 pictures, one from 2010 and one from this year last week. I think it is neat to see the difference. Obviously, I'm heavier. In fact, I'm 30 lbs heavier. WOW.

2010

2012

Oh, by the way, I am growing out my natural hair color. This is the reason for my extremely horrible roots. Well, hope you enjoyed, until next time...

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

My Inner Goddess

I'm channeling my inner Anastasia Steele to let you all know who my inner goddess is.

She is my 19 year old body.
She is blonde.
She is 110 lbs.
She likes working out.
She loves dancing, booty dancing and 80's style.
She is full of energy.
She is funny.
She is healthy.
She is proud of her body.
She is not hurting.

I remember how annoyed I was reading Fifty Shades of Grey and hearing Ana Steele talk about her inner goddess. It was so annoying. I guess her inner goddess was pretty awesome though. I think mine is too. i want to be like my inner goddess!!

Monday, July 9, 2012

Grocery Shopping Success!!

So for the first time in a while, I feel really good about everything I bought at the grocery store tonight. I am really getting excited about losing weight. I really want to focus on what I talked about in my last post. I want to eat to live, and not live to eat. I am going to focus on eating only what I need to. I need to learn how to stop eating when I'm full. I want to eat slower.

I did get my one indulgence, which is popcorn. My husband and I love to eat popcorn and watch our shows at night. Unfortunately, we each eat our own bag. Tonight, we did a good thing. We got the single serve bags. I am so proud of us. He is totally on board with getting healthy and in shape too, so that makes this much easier.

I love Publix. Their produce and fruit section is sooooo much better than Kroger. My husband is going to start juicing again, and so I will probably start that again too. I did it for awhile before I got pregnant, and then for some reason once I was pregnant I had a huge aversion to it. I think it stuck with me but I'm hoping not, because I know how good it is for you. We got a lot of great fruit and veggies.

So I have decided no dieting, just smart eating. Less input more output.

Friday, July 6, 2012

The Hunger Games

So I just read Fifty Shades of Grey, and now I am reading The Hunger Games. It is so funny how each of these books have made me think about the way I eat. In Fifty Shades, Christian has this way he likes his "subs" to eat. I thought to myself, "Hmmm, not a bad diet plan." Now I'm reading The Hunger Games, as I eat a bag of popcorn, thinking how I should learn to eat like a minimalist, like I'm just eating to survive.

Eating food has become so much more than what it should be. We no longer just eat to survive. We eat to celebrate and to enjoy. If I could just get myself out of that mindset, and eat only what I need to survive, then I would be fine. This is tough though. Everything seems to revolve around food. Birthdays, holidays, family gatherings, celebrations, and getting together with friends...all revolve around food. I can't help but think it would be nearly impossible to avoid that. I need to learn how to say no. No to my body and no to my friends and family.

I got the Jillian Michaels "Boost Metabolism" dvd and am going to start doing that soon. Wish me luck!!

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

A Good Eating Day

Today I am proud of myself. I was feeling sooo "snacky" all day. I wanted sweets. I wanted things like popcorn, chocolate, snickers, and I even thought about stopping by Olive Garden for some black tie mousse cake. I did not eat any of those things though. Instead, when I needed a snack I had a granola bar and peanut butter crackers. I have to admit, I did stop by Kroger on the way home and bought dove dark chocolates, popcorn and Starbucks mocha frapps. I did not partake, but the bad thing is now they are in my house. Shame on me!

Monday, June 25, 2012

Story of My Life

So obviously I have been MIA lately. I have been really busy, but I think that is just an excuse. Seriously, this is the story of my life, at least as far as my weight loss goes. I get really excited about doing something, whether it be a new diet, new gym, new workout video, or in this case a blog. The excitement then wears down and I go back down the same path. I refuse to do that this time. I'm going to make it a little easier on myself though, because I am really busy, and it is summer time and getting on the computer every night to blog is tough. I may or may not post every night, but I will keep posting and I will keep trying. I have decided to get rid of my FIAT post. It was just too hard to keep up with. I will talk about things I eat though.

The last 2 weeks have been crazy busy. We went out of town for a reunion, spent tons of time visiting various family members, and have been swimming a lot! I have eaten terribly too. It is so hard for me to eat well when I go out of town. No joke, I ate McDonald's 3 times last weekend. I had it again a couple days ago. I am seriously addicted to that place, and those fries!! I have rediscovered my love for drinking, but now instead of crown and coke, I've matured, and started downing wine. I am pretty positive wine has a lot of calories, especially when drank by the bottle. (Just a note: I actually hardly ever drink. I don't want anyone thinking I've turned into an alcoholic mommy.)

Tonight I am eating steak and grilled veggies. I also hate to admit that after losing 2 lbs, I gained them right back. I am not too happy about that, but I know in my heart I will and can do this.

Monday, June 18, 2012

FIAT

Breakfast:
bagel with cream cheese

Snack:
chocolate donut


Lunch:
tortilla chips and rotel
cookie


Dinner:
Rafferty's good ole boy cheese fries
chicken finger bite salad with ranch


Drinks:
64 oz water
20 oz coke
coffee


Today I was at work and we celebrated a co-worker's 50th birthday. One of my biggest weaknesses is office parties and snacks. Everyone's doing it, right? Oh and it looks soooo good. I'd really love it if I could start eating better soon.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Family Reunion Weekend

So this weekend was a blast. I went out of town to Rural Retreat, VA for a family reunion. It was little man's first stay in a hotel room. I will tell you that being in a hotel room with a 10 month old is a nightmare! Especially since my 10 month old likes to go go go and have lots of room to run around. This may have caused some stress induced eating habits, haha.

I will go ahead and say it. I ate terrible all weekend. I also drank. A LOT. I never get a chance to drink anymore so I did and we had a blast but man am I feeling it today. Exhausted is not even the right word. 6 plus hours in the car equals fast food stops, at least for us. I had McDonalds twice. Yep, and I feel icky. I had 2 and a half bottles of wine over the weekend. I had Pizza Hut pasta tonight because we were so tired and busy doing laundry and unpacking. I am afraid to step on the scale in the morning!

I will say I am very proud of myself for one good decision. At the reunion there were desserts that looked amazing! I did not partake, even after a little peer pressure. I am not sure why sometimes when you tell someone you are trying to be good why they would try to convince you to eat the dessert! I mean, it was like  this: "Mmmm this is the best banana pudding I have ever had. You sure you don't want a bite??? This cheesecake is amazing! Mmmmm sooo good!" Then they proceeded to hover their plate near me trying to tempt me. If the person that said this to me is reading this, I love you, but COME ON! I need encouragement, not that.

I realize I have missed a couple FIAT posts but that may happen here and there. I will try to update during the posts, like this one, when I do. I think I am going to get some much needed sleep now!!

Friday, June 15, 2012

FIAT

Breakfast:
bagel with cream cheese

Lunch:
Cracker barrel fried chicken salad with ranch dressing

Dinner:
Local restaurant 6oz filet
Mashed potatoes
House salad with ranch

Drinks:
64 oz water
Coffee
1 bottle of blackberry wine
20 oz of coke

I have been traveling today and went out to eat all day. I'm also drinking a lot!! I'm having a blast!

Thursday, June 14, 2012

FIAT

Breakfast:
bagel with cream cheese

Snack:
banana
lunchable

Lunch:
Which Wich tuna sub with cheese, light mayo, and lettuce

Dinner:
Baked beans
2 hot dogs with ketchup, mustard, and cheese

I was at home today and went to the mall and got some walking in with my sister-in-law. I felt good about that, but my body hurts, even from just a little walking. It was so hot today too, so that ended up giving me a migraine.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

FIAT

Breakfast:
Cinnamon and Raisin bagel with cream cheese

Snack:
Banana

Lunch:
Lunchable with wheat crackers, bologna and cheese
Mac n cheese (1 cup)

Snack:
Fruit bowl-had a couple strawberries, pieces of watermelon, and pineapple

Dinner: 3 pieces stuffed crust cheese pizza

Drinks:
64 oz water
16 oz coke

Phew, I'm glad the pizza is gone. No more temptation in the house. I was at home today with little man.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

FIAT

Breakfast:
Peaches n Cream oatmeal

Snack:
Peanut Butter Crackers (6 pack)

Lunch:
Lean Cuisine Santa Fe Rice and Beans

Dinner:
2 pieces of left-over stuffed crust cheese pizza

Drinks:
64 oz water
8 oz grape juice
Starbucks grande mocha frap no whip cream

I worked today. I feel like today I did pretty good except for the pizza of course. Oh and the Starbucks!

Before Pics!

So, I am finally posting my before pics. I went and got my hair did today after work so I felt a little prettier. I am letting my hair grow out to it's natural color though so don't mind the terrible roots I have going on.



Here I am! I can not wait to post an after. I think I will post a new picture after every 10 lbs. What do you think? Ugh, my boobs are gigantic. I feel like they make my front look so much bigger than it is. If my boobs are this ridiculous after losing all the weight, I'm getting my boobs smaller. Fo sho.

My main insecurities are my arms, boobs, legs and double chins. I have some work to do!!

Monday, June 11, 2012

FIAT

Breakfast:
Peaches and Cream Quaker Oatmeal

Snack:
Chocolate Chip granola bar
about 20 reduced fat cheez-its

Lunch:
Smart Ones Angel Hair Marinara

Dinner:
3 pieces of stuffed crust cheese pizza from Pizza Hut

Drinks:
64 oz water
usual coffee
24 oz of coke

I was at work today. I ate pretty good...until I got home, of course. You saw my previous post...stupid Mondays!

Mondays...

...suck. They are hectic and busy and I end up coming home and not wanting to cook. I had plans of a pretty decent dinner. Pork chops, green beans, baked potato...but no. I came home and now guess what I'm having? Stuffed crust cheese pizza from Pizza Hut. Delicious yes, healthy no. I do this to myself all of the time. I know it is bad and I shouldn't but I keep doing it over and over again.

You would think after staring at my fat roll around my stomach while I sat outside and saw my reflection in the glass that I would want to eat salads all day. Why can't a salad taste like a double cheeseburger, damnit! I'll be back for the embarrassing FIAT later.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

FIAT

Breakfast:
Peanut butter sandwich on wheat bread

Lunch:
Lunchable-balogna and cheese with crackers
Doritos

Dinner:
Half a box of Velveeta shells and cheese

Drinks:
My usual coffee
64 oz water
20 oz coke

I am at home by myself with little man today. That half a box of mac n cheese was good, but cost me 540 calories for the day. I need to eat better than that!

****Update****
I had a bologna and cheese sandwich with mayo on wheat bread 

I Have a 10 Month Old

Yep, I have a 10 month old and I am fat and out of shape. He seriously wears me out. He is so close to walking. I need to get in shape so that I can keep up with him! If you have read my other blog you know I have arthrogryposis. It makes things very difficult, but I adapt. Pregnancy really did a number on my body, and along with all of the extra weight gain, my body is totally in a funk. I have to take this joint medicine every night so that I don't get too stiff. I can tell if I miss a pill. Oh how I miss the days when I had so much energy and didn't hurt every day.

I ended up getting diagnosed with Post Partum Depression. It gradually got worse and worse so I finally talked to my doctor about it. I was super embarrassed and didn't even want to tell my husband. I got to a very bad point, and I had no energy, felt terrible about myself, didn't have any desire to do anything, felt useless, and was just very very depressed. My doctor put me on an antidepressant and it has made a huge difference. I feel much better, and really have started feeling myself again. I would never have had the courage to blog about this before. I know it was the right decision to go to the doctor though, because my depression was getting bad.

I knew I needed to be better for my sweet boy. It was a great decision, and I feel motivated now. I want to be healthier for him. I want to be active with him and be able to keep up with him. I have around 70 lbs to lose. I have no idea how to do it yet, because I have tried so many things. I figure this blog will help me find the right way and hold me accountable. Here's a picture of my sweet boy:

Saturday, June 9, 2012

FIAT

Breakfast:
Quaker Strawberry Oatmeal
Hazelnut coffee with creamer and 2 splendas

Lunch:
Bologna and cheese sandwich on wheat bread with mayo

Snack:
Marble Slab double dark chocolate with chocolate chips in a small cup

Dinner:
Grilled barbecue chicken, squash and zucchini sautéed, grilled mushrooms and grilled potatoes, 3 slices of tomatoes and sliced cucumbers

Drinks:
20 oz coke
64 oz water

I was off today and went out and about so I was not so good with my eating. We also went to the in laws and had dinner there so that explains my delicious meal that was huge too!

Marble Slab

Why must you be so good?? Tell me, on 90 degree weather how do you refuse it?? That is my bad decision of the day. I'll post FIAT later. :)

Friday, June 8, 2012

Food I Ate Today

From here on out this post will be named "FIAT". I hope to update every day with EVERYTHING, as embarrassing as it may be, that I ate. Ugh I have a feeling this may be humiliating. I hope not for long though.

Morning:
Hazelnut Coffee with creamer and 2 packets of splenda
1 packet Quaker Oats Strawberry Oatmeal

Morning snack:
A LOT of reduced fat cheez-its
2 Dove dark chocolates

Lunch:
3 of my friends onion rings from restaurant
Lean Cuisine Sante Fe Rice and Beans
20 oz coke

Afternoon Snack:
More Cheez-Its
2 more Dove dark chocolates

Dinner:
2 pieces of Stuffed Crust Cheese Pizza
8 oz diet coke

I was at work today. I work a desk job and Fridays are slow so I tend to get bored and snack a lot. Until tomorrow...

The Reason

Hey! I have decided to do another blog, but this time about my journey to a healthier and happier me. I am not really sure the direction this blog will go yet, because I have no real plans as of yet on how I am going to get in shape. I know that I want to, and I have been trying for the past 6 years. No offense to my husband, but ever since we met, my weight has slowly gone up. My mom is a good cook, and his mom is a good cook. I have tried everything. I lost, I've gained, lost again, gained, had a baby, and now 10 months after having a baby I'm just too fat. I lost all my pregnancy weight but now I need to lose my "I got married and got fat" weight.

I plan on this being a VERY honest blog. I want to see where I go wrong. I pretty much know, but it will be helpful to look back, and who knows, maybe this can be helpful to someone else one day when I become a super hot momma! :)

I am currently 5'0 tall and 180 lbs. When I was 19, I felt my sexiest and healthiest. I was 106 lbs, and in great shape. I know I'm not 19, I'm 28 now, but my goal is to get to 110 lbs. I need to lose 70 lbs!! Holy geez. Here is a couple pictures of me at 19:

       

Yeah, I saw the Chippendales in Vegas...whew, hot show! Ok...I hate pictures of me now, but here is a current fat picture of me:


I can't find a full body one right now but I will add one later. You can see a big difference in my face and arms. ICK. I'm going to fix this. It might take me a few more falls (hopefully not) to get there, but I want it and need it. I plan on posting about my good choices and bad choices in food and exercise every week. If you have any suggestions on things I can do for the blog, please comment! I need all the help and motivation I can get!