I'm Still Here

Hey everyone, just thought I would check in. I am still very much interested in losing weight and bettering myself, but I have been so busy. Between work, birthday parties, a vacation, planning a 1st birthday party, and the usual summer gatherings, I have just been way too busy to blog. I think (and hope) once the fall gets here that life will settle down a bit.

I'm still in the "eat to live" mindset. I think it is my best option. I love it. I have to say I have not lost any weight. I haven't really gotten too serious yet about the weight loss like I would have liked, but I know it is going to happen. I am talking about it more and more and becoming more aware of everything I eat. This is probably the slowest going plan I've had so far, but I think that might be a good sign. I have always wanted the fast results. I still do, but what I'm trying to do is not a diet or a quick fix. I am going for a complete makeover. A lifestyle change.

So just for fun, I thought I'd share a couple of pictures. When we go on vacation we always go to this same restaurant called Crabby Bills. I thought I'd share 2 pictures, one from 2010 and one from this year last week. I think it is neat to see the difference. Obviously, I'm heavier. In fact, I'm 30 lbs heavier. WOW.

2010

2012

Oh, by the way, I am growing out my natural hair color. This is the reason for my extremely horrible roots. Well, hope you enjoyed, until next time...

My Inner Goddess

I'm channeling my inner Anastasia Steele to let you all know who my inner goddess is.

She is my 19 year old body.
She is blonde.
She is 110 lbs.
She likes working out.
She loves dancing, booty dancing and 80's style.
She is full of energy.
She is funny.
She is healthy.
She is proud of her body.
She is not hurting.

I remember how annoyed I was reading Fifty Shades of Grey and hearing Ana Steele talk about her inner goddess. It was so annoying. I guess her inner goddess was pretty awesome though. I think mine is too. i want to be like my inner goddess!!

Grocery Shopping Success!!

So for the first time in a while, I feel really good about everything I bought at the grocery store tonight. I am really getting excited about losing weight. I really want to focus on what I talked about in my last post. I want to eat to live, and not live to eat. I am going to focus on eating only what I need to. I need to learn how to stop eating when I'm full. I want to eat slower.

I did get my one indulgence, which is popcorn. My husband and I love to eat popcorn and watch our shows at night. Unfortunately, we each eat our own bag. Tonight, we did a good thing. We got the single serve bags. I am so proud of us. He is totally on board with getting healthy and in shape too, so that makes this much easier.

I love Publix. Their produce and fruit section is sooooo much better than Kroger. My husband is going to start juicing again, and so I will probably start that again too. I did it for awhile before I got pregnant, and then for some reason once I was pregnant I had a huge aversion to it. I think it stuck with me but I'm hoping not, because I know how good it is for you. We got a lot of great fruit and veggies.

So I have decided no dieting, just smart eating. Less input more output.

The Hunger Games

So I just read Fifty Shades of Grey, and now I am reading The Hunger Games. It is so funny how each of these books have made me think about the way I eat. In Fifty Shades, Christian has this way he likes his "subs" to eat. I thought to myself, "Hmmm, not a bad diet plan." Now I'm reading The Hunger Games, as I eat a bag of popcorn, thinking how I should learn to eat like a minimalist, like I'm just eating to survive.

Eating food has become so much more than what it should be. We no longer just eat to survive. We eat to celebrate and to enjoy. If I could just get myself out of that mindset, and eat only what I need to survive, then I would be fine. This is tough though. Everything seems to revolve around food. Birthdays, holidays, family gatherings, celebrations, and getting together with friends...all revolve around food. I can't help but think it would be nearly impossible to avoid that. I need to learn how to say no. No to my body and no to my friends and family.

I got the Jillian Michaels "Boost Metabolism" dvd and am going to start doing that soon. Wish me luck!!

A Good Eating Day

Today I am proud of myself. I was feeling sooo "snacky" all day. I wanted sweets. I wanted things like popcorn, chocolate, snickers, and I even thought about stopping by Olive Garden for some black tie mousse cake. I did not eat any of those things though. Instead, when I needed a snack I had a granola bar and peanut butter crackers. I have to admit, I did stop by Kroger on the way home and bought dove dark chocolates, popcorn and Starbucks mocha frapps. I did not partake, but the bad thing is now they are in my house. Shame on me!

Story of My Life

So obviously I have been MIA lately. I have been really busy, but I think that is just an excuse. Seriously, this is the story of my life, at least as far as my weight loss goes. I get really excited about doing something, whether it be a new diet, new gym, new workout video, or in this case a blog. The excitement then wears down and I go back down the same path. I refuse to do that this time. I'm going to make it a little easier on myself though, because I am really busy, and it is summer time and getting on the computer every night to blog is tough. I may or may not post every night, but I will keep posting and I will keep trying. I have decided to get rid of my FIAT post. It was just too hard to keep up with. I will talk about things I eat though.

The last 2 weeks have been crazy busy. We went out of town for a reunion, spent tons of time visiting various family members, and have been swimming a lot! I have eaten terribly too. It is so hard for me to eat well when I go out of town. No joke, I ate McDonald's 3 times last weekend. I had it again a couple days ago. I am seriously addicted to that place, and those fries!! I have rediscovered my love for drinking, but now instead of crown and coke, I've matured, and started downing wine. I am pretty positive wine has a lot of calories, especially when drank by the bottle. (Just a note: I actually hardly ever drink. I don't want anyone thinking I've turned into an alcoholic mommy.)

Tonight I am eating steak and grilled veggies. I also hate to admit that after losing 2 lbs, I gained them right back. I am not too happy about that, but I know in my heart I will and can do this.

FIAT

Breakfast:
bagel with cream cheese

Snack:
chocolate donut


Lunch:
tortilla chips and rotel
cookie


Dinner:
Rafferty's good ole boy cheese fries
chicken finger bite salad with ranch


Drinks:
64 oz water
20 oz coke
coffee


Today I was at work and we celebrated a co-worker's 50th birthday. One of my biggest weaknesses is office parties and snacks. Everyone's doing it, right? Oh and it looks soooo good. I'd really love it if I could start eating better soon.